18.12.2003 ~ 8:49 pm
my maternal grandma just had a stroke. she's in hospital.
music from the computer sounded like sirens so i turned it off.
it's scarily silent in the house. and cold.
i hope she'll be fine.
i can't remember the last time i saw her. must have been last weekend. no, i was at school instead of going to dinner. i can't remember.
my aunt had a stroke when i was very little. she was in hospital for a long time but she coped very well. she was thirty something. she learned to use her left hand to do things. her mother, my paternal grandama, not this one, is ambidextrous. i talked to her last night because she was calling my maternal grandma and couldn't get through because she was on the phone.
she sounded tired and worried. she was on anti-depressants during last year's sars thing. i thought that it was amusingly ironic that she was more safe than others because of her ultra-hygienic habits. SB didn't find it funny at all. that might be because it isn't.
fuck fuck fuck.
how can i pray when i'm not sure i believe in God?
<< i don't know. >>
