I feel shit, basically. Suddenly I realise that this is it; I�m leaving. I went through the exams fine, but now it�s slowly hitting me (poking me?) and this is the end. Very optimistic. I need to be in denial. Suits me better.

So far, I�ve only bought cards for my teachers. No presents yet. Chess bought all her male teachers jelly bellies. At least it�s something. Therefore I need to buy something tomorrow if I even hope to give them things on Friday. But no one wants to come with me.

Yvonne, Meera and ticca are babes. They rock. I am also dizzy from taking off my contacts. Life feels like feeling sick.

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th since 5th october 2001