23.11.2003 ~ 11:50 pm
downloading photos is exhausting. especially when you�ve got 534 and some of them are already downloaded, some were, but were then erased when your laptop was sent away to get fixed. said photos were downloaded Back In the Day. i believe that was the day i saw ticca and mads for the Last Time. listening to a song about a heart being broken again doesn�t help. i miss you so much.
i�ve put all the photos taken in the days after Book Return Day and before Flying to Houston in a folder called �last days�. as though i died when i got on the plane. i�ll have to delete these 534 photos. this has always been hard. i wonder if you can stop the process once you begin. �ALL DELETE...� says the camera. dear god, NO! had to be done.
and now i�ll have to download photos taken in my new life (or afterlife) from another chip. i feel as if i�m betraying something. i believe there�s a fat old guy in chain mail and nothing else in there. i was hoping to shoot some young, less unattractive girls in chain mail, but my camera is a bit retarded (in the original sense of the word). you have to press it, then press it. the process takes at least 2 seconds, which is very slow when a parade is walking past. i missed a man with a big sign saying �BASTARD� hanging off his neck. and you know how much i like the word.
*puts Little Chip (Little Chip is 16 MB, Big Chip is 128 MB) into camera. plugs it in*
158 photos. there are going to be ones i don�t remember and ones i�m not sure whether i�ve downloaded before. oh dear.
halloween. that was a shit wig, wasn�t it? no wonder they looked at me weird. i just labelled a file �sk8ting� for ironic purposes. hahahahaha...no.
i took photos of lights in shops and stuff and night, hoping that they�re look really artistic. they didn�t. likewise with purple smarties.
oh dear god. time to delete everything, deny everything and start on a blank chip. or two.
534. i can�t do it. too many. too precious. what if my computer combusts spontaneously? last time i did this, nay stared at me for 22 minutes, sanding something in DT.
goodbye.
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