hello.

words cannot convey how stupid i look in my school photographs. the ones from Ribbons and Lace, by the way. or Bob. if this makes you go and look at them and rediscover how shit i looked, damn. it was an important day in my life, okay? very upsetting. got results, but i know them already, so nothing new and shocking. annoyed that edexcel doesn't give you all your marks. neither does OCR, then again. i want to find out what i got! cos i'm sure i did really badly on the maths non-cal paper. anyway, i got full marks on the spanish reading as i predicted. go me!

stayed afterschool for interact club, got my first hour of community servise. got to chat with my latin buddy so it was fun. we painted chalkboards for children in afganistan. also got to meet new people who are amazed at my accent. startign to get old now. accent's also starting to dilute... must watch bbc america.

so much bloody homework to do. ooh, first day of school in the UK. very official indeed. i can't go back anymore. sob. also no one's gonna be replying to my emails...

this summer has been a major "thing", not quite turning point, because i haven't changed much, but now that it's over, it's as though i have to move on. but emotionally, i haven't. it still feels like the several weeks before i moved away. i half expect meera to call me and go to brent cross or something. i spent a lot of that time in buses, so now i've developed some sort of emotional attachment to them. hm.

i've always had problems with summer ending. this is just the same except with a major twist. ok, it's completely different.

so. how y'all doing? (ahem.) good i hope? good. now don't tell me about it. i have fangirl things to do.

ooh. i got given a number today. from a girl. what does that say?

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th since 5th october 2001