internet room: version: 14.9. the furniture in the internet room/study/room of dreaded work and filing/whatever has been rearranged again to make typing easier. reasult is good. its comfortable.

while tidying my crap, i found the Sc.2 (science 2: social studies) project from primary 3 on food. i got an A- for it along with, i think, 2 other people. it was skilled, i was 8 and my mum bought me books to do it on. all we got was the title: "food", and i worked my ass off on it. needless to say, i am bitching about this here cos i think i deserved an A. before you say to your computer that A- was the highest mark, i'd just like to mention that one person did get an A, and that i'd be happy to point her out to you if you hand me the yearbook.

the teacher liked her layout, which was shit: she drew a red line down the middle of the page. on the left she wrote her spiel. on the right she stuck in pictures and drew. bitch point no. 1: she had no artistic talent; bitch point no. 2: why is that a good layout? is it asthetically pleasing? is the info clear presented only in that layout? is it clear at all? would people know which piece of writing went with which pic? did she do anything on famine? i did. digestion? i did.

wish i found the Sc. 1 (science 1: your average sciences: phys, chem, bio) i got an A in that. it was on whales and dolphins. i did a kickass centre fold-out thing on the comparison of sizes of different whales and people. also that was in english. unlike the chinese sc. 2 project. the teacher probably liked me more too.

found photocopies of the reports from the first 3 years: i was in 1B, 2A and 3A. i dont believe that i took all their shit. let me illustrate. the only As i got was in the first year, where i got 3: in the autumn term,1 in art and in the summer term, 1in art and 1 in english handwriting. and i'm pretty sure i didnt get any more As ever in that school. okay, so they only gave letter grades in oral, handwritting, art, music and PE. so what.

and speaking of music i got an E. an E. i have never even gotten a D. E.E.E.E.E. what did she say? "very weak in singing and sense of pitch, but she tries hard in class activities."

excuse-moi? i lost my bloody voice for a term (there were only 2 terms) of couse i couldnt sing. THERE WAS NO PITCH BECAUSE I HAD NO VOICE! YOU CAN'T VARY THE PITCH OF SILENCE, WHICH HAS NO PITCH. i could hardly speak, let alone sing. that was in the autumn term in primary 3, btw. she was a fascist-treble-singing-soprano-bitch. i dont think she understood that some people sing alto. even when i got part of my voice back, she'd play the accompaniment really high. at the time, i was a jerk and didnt know that there was a thing called assertiveness: "sorry, *smile* i can't sing this high, can you please play an octave lower?" so i thought that she was being a bitch. but how could she know that i had a low voice? she had never heard me sing. so i got a C next term. written over a tippexed out E. and she didnt fully tippex out the E, just to piss me off.

all the reports basically say the same thing: english and maths above class average. "very good, quiet, etc." chinese below average, therefore the comment reads: "does not [like] participate [ing] in class. should work harder [than she does in english and maths]." NEEEEEEEEEEH. INCORRECT. i only work for chinese. it was my goal in primary school to get above average in chinese. screw english. screw maths. i can do both okay.

finally in primary 4 i got above average in chinese. still, the comment read: "has potential, could try harder...blah blah blah... read chinese books." sorry, not interested. screw all this, i'm getting outta here, i said, mission completed. so here i am in a non-chinese-speaking country.

i was in HK last christmas. i remember having dinner with clara, wongsiu and jacqua in the apple restaurant just behind the school. $60 for a 3 course meal. among the singing out of tune (pitchfully) we were disscussing the primary school (Daily Giving Joyful Service, remember?). started out all happy memories, disintergrates into a bitchfest. absence definately makes the heart fonder. thank god i'm not present.

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