saw Igby Goes Down with hannah today. we really wanted to see it, but it was only on at muswell hill odeon so i took the bus there. it was easier and nearer than i thought. i like muswell hill, it�s very pretty. while waiting for hannah, i saw a coach, probably from my school and i saw this shop called falconer (or the falconer) which my RS teacher must shop from she lives somewhere near there and i�m pretty sure that two of her bags are from there. she has this obsession with putting her books and files in brightly coloured bags. she has a system, she said.

muswell hill odeon was a sweet little cinema. the girl who sold us the tickets also sold me my tango. there were only 3 screens and our one only had 3 more people. it was very small and very dark, and i couldn�t actually see anything but somehow hannah managed to find some seats. the actual screen had curtains, which closed after the trailers and opened again for the film. none of that �now for our feature presentation� bullshit.

after the film (which was very cool, especially when ryan phillippe was on), we sort of went our separate ways and that would have been The Last Time i see hannah until next year if i�m lucky. she�s going to spain next week and then to italy, so she won�t make The Picnic.

i hate saying good-bye to my friends like this. it�s really horrible. so far, out of my close friendship circle i�ve bid farewell to hannah and ash, but i�ll have to do that to a lot more people next week, and i may have already done so to some people without knowing that it�s the last time i�ve seen them. i don�t know if mads has gone to kenya but she might have already.

walking past the bus stop on my way home, i wanted to to wait for another bus to come so i can go too muswell hill again and see hannah again. going to the cinema is not the best way to spend time with someone for the last time.

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th since 5th october 2001